Quite often there just simply doesn't feel like enough hours in the day. That could be part of the reason I don't like sleeping, but that's another post entirely. This one is about how each day feels like every minute is occupied, I don't have any "free time" anymore.
But the more I think about this, the more I realise it isn't true. Each day is filled with choices, and you choose what to do in your free time. The problem is... you can't choose everything, so how do you choose anything!
I knew once bubs came along, my own free time would certainly drastically reduce, and it's not that I don't have any, but at the moment I feel like I'm choosing to occupy that time with the wrong things. The things I truly enjoy, the things I want to dedicate time to, are the things I have put on the back burner since Indy was born.
I have barely written anything on my sequel to Four of a Kind, which really frustrates me as I mentally scribe to myself all the time, but have struggled to get the words out of my head and onto a page. I (attempt) to play Saxophone and Keyboard, but the only playing I've done has been 5 minutes here or there - normally with Indy sitting on my lap bashing the keys. The number of books I have read over the past 10 months I could count on one hand. And without a doubt, my blog and website have suffered!
So what do you do? How do other people have hobbies and interests and maintain them after they become parents? I'm not sure there is a simple answer, or a simple solution for that matter. It ultimately comes down to choices. You choose what to do each day, and you can choose to do something like playing the keyboard for an hour, you just have to realise what the cost of doing so is. Is it that the washing might not get done until later in the day? The kitchen dishes might stay dirty until after dinner? Or is it more that your bubs will have to entertain themself for a period of time, because they only have so many naps a day!
They say life is a great balancing act, and I think this becomes so much more true when you have a child. I think I just need to rebalance, and I'm starting right now by posting this blog!