Perhaps I'm still feeling philisophical having just finished off a book on the philosophy of Inception, and this is why I'm choosing to title my latest spiel on my journey to becoming a New York Times Best Seller upon a Shakespeare quote, but without even delving into any detail, it just felt right.
When one comes up against a wall, we often think "perhaps it's just not meant to be". To be or not to be... that is the question. Or perhaps it is a choice.
Okay... I'll try to stop peering down in that Rabbit Hole and take a step back for a moment. What I am really getting at is a choice. A choice for a way forward. For you see, as we approach Christmas, I am looking over my New Year's resolutions for 2013, one of which was to "get my book published". And as I reflect upon this particular resolution, I know that it is different. It's not one of those resolutions you simply sweep under the rug, like taking archery lessons or cleaning out the boxes of highschool memorabilia in your garage. No this is one of those resolutions that is almost upsetting that it's still lingering on the list incomplete. And what is perhaps most upsetting, is that this isn't through lack of trying.
And this is where the choice comes into things. And it's not a singular choice. Firstly, I could simply decide that "perhaps it's just not meant to be". But I know this isn't true. Instead, it's about finding a new way forward. Let me be direct. I've tried the agency path, and while there were nibbles, there was no bite. More recently I've tried the publishing path, and to be honest, I actually don't know one way or the other as to what the result is here. But that's the problem. How long do you wait? And I've talked about my dislike for The Waiting Game before... Which leaves me where? Ready to try something new, as it was our good friend Mr Albert Einstein who said "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
But actually... I'm not closing these doors, I'm choosing to open another - self publishing. I've only just begun to look into this, and of course I share the same optimistic attitude that I'm sure many self-publishing authors do, of "if they can do it, why can't I?" Do I need to be more realistic? Take into account the number of authors who self-publish and the number who actually turn into E. L. James? That just goes against every part of my being. Why would you not aim the highest you can, and I will. However, with all the irreconciable feedback about the self-publishing industry, I think I need to call upon some other thoughts. It's about Being courageous. Being brave. Being ambitious. Deciding that it is to be!
And for me, it is to be, but how it is to be, is a choice entirely up to me.